the time between us seemed to pass so fast

and the feelings will always last

ill always see you in my heart

and never will our love part

you say that you would never hurt me

but why is it tat my heart bleeds

you say you want to let us go

and never again will our love grow

why am i the last to know

if this is the truth

please just let me hold you.

do you think that love can be forgotten so soon

like how the sun awakens after the moon

love stays forever till you die

and all the one you care about can only cry

you can only regret the love you hide

and hurt youself as the years come by

why not let our love be fulfilled

instead of thrown away foreal

my mind is confused by your sense of choice

can you not hear the cry in my voice?

you say that if we touch again

the old flames will remain

but what do i do now that you dont care?

your decision just isnt fair

my heart is aching the last of our time

when your heart has forgotten mine

you have already told your self to let me go

but what about me, why am i the last to know?

i am lost and without a clue

please just let me hold you.

are you that heartless not to care

even though our love you cannot bare

why do you not care about what happens to us

why are you not welling to trust

trust in your heart and hope for the best

please just let us take a rest

from the pain and the sorrow that we both have bared

so our love will open and be shared.

its been five years now that we havent been together

and now the love is lifted as light as a feather

it surrounds my world like never before

and the pain and heart ache cannot be ignored

we live only one life and never again

please open your heart and dont pretend

let your love be known for me

and let our love be.

what do we do when we meet on the road

do we pretend our love does not show

do we pass each other with a smile

or glance for a while

what to do? what to do?

i know our love can be true!

now that it is known in my heart for the rest of my life

i dont think i could ever say my good bye

please dont hate me when i cry

and run to you to kiss me good night

now that the secret is out

i can never let you go without a doubt

baby, let me love you like you loved me

and i promise you we will be happy

if your love was so strong that it lasted all these years

you cannot push me away like you dont care

hold me again and let the flames awake

and in your arms withhold my heart you will take

please just let me hold you.

11-25-02

SCARED

i was scared

i was scared when we first met

you were different and my mind of was set

i was scared of you

the next night i was afraid of us

but as we danced i felt your touch

i was scared of you

i looked into your green eyes

and felt the love and i was shy

i was scared of you

i was shot by a arrow from no where

all i could forever do was now stare

i was scared of you

i wanted to hold you forever that night

as we kissed our good bye

i was scared of you

from that first night we were alone

making out and on the phone

i was scared of you

your touch was like an angel who held me

your eyes were like visions that helped me see

i was scared of you

with you i was never lost

every wrong or right we faught

i was scared of you

the comforting nights we would lay

and the tunes of the guitar you would play

i was scared of you

the stars that twinkle in the sky

were the sparks in your eyes

i was scared of you

you were my mr. right

my shining knight

i was scared of you

my heart never searched for love

for you gave me love i wouldnt have to look above

i was scared of you

your smile touched me from a million miles away

and your walk led my path forever to stay

i was scared of you

scared of your love being so true

scared of our love really going through

i was scared of losing you...

9-24-02

i want to die

i walk in to a world full of life

but for me i wake into the night

the light shines into my eyes

to recognize the lies

but i blink and there we are

our love as shiny as the stars

and once again i am lost

because the moments in my mind are all apart

there is no truth

cause there is no you

i walk down the street and look out to the road

it is not me cause i am really dead though

i want to die

and as i cry

i think of you

every heart beat that beats

makes me juss more weak

and my body and mind is no more

the heart itself is sore

the lake and the rivers do not excite me anymore

living life is not living for

and i want to die

and as i cry

i think of you

the day is long and the night is far

i wish that i was hit by a car

as the light that shines are only stars

for i wish every night from afar

and i want to die

and as i cry

i think of you

i think that if i die

i will stop my suffering and yours

i wont have to call you anymore

and i wont have to bother you there fore

you can forget me more easily

for i guess i cannot please

and i want to die

and as i cry

i think of you

will you please not blame me

for the pain i am feeling

and for my thoughts of killing

i feel that i am bleeding

and soon the blood from within my wounded heart

will leak into your hands as youll catch me

and my last breath will be for you not to blame me

for i just wanted to see if you really care

for life is just not fair

and i want to die

and as i cry

i think of you...

WONDER

i wonder to myself of rhymes

lonely and happy at the same time

feeling like i can rap every poem i write

and have the knowledge not to fight

knowledge in life and in school

is something i need to not be a fool

lost in life and keeping it live

its hard to live the rules you live by

wondering wondering what is the answer

you confuse yourself with the planner

what to do today and what to do tomorrow

all that is planned comes with sorrow

that new days brings more judgement

and no one is heavenly sent

why do we take on reputation

when its just a minipulation

life is full of dreams and thoughts

and we are all that you've got

please come up on your knees

and carry me

through my sorrow dreams and sleepy days

and take away all that strays

in my life these past days

i just need a heart that holds me tight

and tells me its alright

but in my thoughts i cannot care

for it is love that i fear

so love is not the answer to my weep

all i need is some more sleep

take me away in your arms

and just keep me away from love's harm

i know you're there in life and in death

but i will meet you in bed.

11-14-02

DO YOU WANT ME

THE WIND BLOWS THE SAME EVERYDAY

AND I STARE THE SAME DIRECTION ON MY WAY

I LEARN SOMETHING NEW EVERY TIME THE SUN SETS

AND I SIT QUIETLY AND THINK OF WHO I'VE MET

I LOOK UP TO THE CEILING AND WONDER THE SAME THOUGHTS

AND I THINK OF WAT I FORGOT

I KNOW THERE IS A FUTURE

BUT SOME TIMES IM NOT SURE

I FEEL SO LOST AND LONELY

AND MAYBE THATS WHY I AM ME

AFRAID OF EVERYONE'S TOUCH

AND MISSING YOURS SO MUCH

WHAT IS RIGHT AND WHAT IS WRONG

I ALWAY JUST TRY TO WRITE A SONG

WHY DO I FEEL THIS WAY?

AND I CAN NEVER FIND THE WORDS TO SAY

I JUST WANT TO TELL YOU

THAT IF YOUR LONELY TOO

LETS GET TOGETHER AND SPEND SOME TIME

LET US TELL EACH OTHER WE ARE FINE

THAT WE DONT GO PSYCHO IN OUR HEADS

AND WE DONT HAVE TO RELY ON OTHERS INSTEAD

WHY DO I HAVE BOOTIES?

MAYBE BECAUSE BEING IN LOVE LEAVES COOTIES

AND WHEN WILL LOVE BE REALLY LOVE

ALL I EVER WANTED WAS YOU FROM ABOVE

HOW WILL I KNOW WHEN YOU WILL COME

AND WILL IT MATTER WHERE YOU ARE FROM?

I AM SAD

AND AT TIMES IM SO MAD

AND EVERYDAY I TRY TO KEEP MYSELF HAPPY

I TRY TO PLAY WITH MY PUPPY

I KEEP MY HEAD HIGH AND IN THE SKY

THAT WAY I WILL NEVER HAVE TO SAY GOOD BYE

NEVER TO BREAK ANOTHER HEART OR MINES

IF I JUST SAY IM FINE

WHY IS IT SO HARD TO FIND SOMEONE WHO FITS

AND WHEN YOU DO THEY WANT SOMEONE WITH BIG TITS

AND THATS NOT ME

CANT YOU SEE?

I AM ME

AND ITS HARD FOR MYSELF TO BELIEVE

THAT THERE IS MUCH IN THE WORLD TO SEE

I AM YOUNG

AND MAYBE SOMETIMES SPRUNG

IF YOU THINK I MIGHT BE SOMEONE YOU WOULD WANT

AND YOU ARE SOMEONE I WOULD WANT

LEAVE ME A NOTE

OR TELL A FRIEND THAT YOU KNOW

THAT YOU KNOW ME

AND IF THEY KNOW SOMEONE WHO WANTS SOMEONE LIKE ME

I AM EXPERENCED AND I GO FOR WHAT I WANT IN LIFE

I WANT TO BE SATISFIED BEFORE I DIE

SO WILL YOU PLEASE INTRODUCE

YOUR WORLD TO MY WORLD

AND LETS BE ONE WORLD...

10-31-02 LISA VANG

STILL MISSING YOU

time between us has moved by too fast

and your love doesnt look like its going to last.

now all we are is the past.

whenever i see you again

my heart begins to feel pain.

if you think these words are lame

your heart must be so plain.

i hear you still love me

now that i see

i think we can still be meant to be.

i think of you and me.

but why when i ask you how you feel

you keep it away

seems like your trying to say..

you have no love for me anymore.

when i look into your eyes

i see two loving doves fly.

i know you still care.

i should tell you to

ive been loving you, all this time too.

THINKING OF YOU

why is it

that when we're near

we start to get scared

why is it that when we're far

the only way to hear each other

is to wish on a star.

when will fate come along

to make us both feel strong

i guess someone up there

cant let us be hear

but only stare from afar

i do hope someday

i do hope not too late

that you will not forget me and wait

so maybe someday

oh ill just pray

we can prove

maybe even lovers from afar

can last a million years too.

LIFE TIME

ever since ive know you

ive given you all my heart

i knew you were the one, right from the start.

youve never told me how you felt

but by the tone of your voice i could tell

these daydreams that i have of how i wish for you and me to be

i really wish you can see, without you i couldnt be.

because of a night on the phone with you

an argument took place between us two

it made you talk to me so rude.

even though the words you say and do

you know makes me feel so sad and blue

i can only tell you how strong i feel for you.

no matter how much youd hate me in this life time

our good times will always be my best times.

you used to ask me all the time...

how do you love someone youve never met.. id tell you..

all these feelings that i have , id never hide

ever since weve known each other

youve become the angel for me.

the feelings that i have for you

never lets me tell lies, only tell what's true.

youve helped me grow inside and out

youve helped me feel so different

i now know the difference i dont have to be near to be loved,

i could be loved the most, and never see you ...

for another life time...

I LOVE YOU NO MORE

when i read a poem that touches me in my heart

i think of how we are apart

and i guess our love had no plot

i really miss you alot.

i fell for you for many years

and about all the tears i gave out to you

i guess it just made me look more like a fool.

when you called me up one day

i thought you called to love me again

but found out later, you wanted to play

i was hurt again

and again... my hearts in pain.

i see you one day

with a girl i guess you love

i wish it was you and me

and not you and her i see.

i think about how much youve hurt me

i decide to let you go

didnt think it was going to be easy to let you go

now i know

i love you no more.

LOVING YOU by: LitoStarBoy BRIAN VANG

living life young and free

i never thought how good life could possibly be.

until i met you

you were everything i wanted and everything i knew.

you were all i kept thinking of..

after all, your my one and only true love

when i think of you, i feel lucky

when i think of you, it brings a smile to me

thats why i gave you all my heart

i just hope you wont tear it apart.

i also hold myself true to you

hoping youd do the same for me too

though i see you every night in my dreams

the you that i see isnt as good as it seems

and no matter how far apart we are

im always wishing on my shining star.

that one day i will be with you

or one day all my dreams will come true.

like the rivers flowing to the sea

is it possible that we're meant to be

but because of the distance ill just pray

that time and faith builds this relationship between you and me.

i hope it builds it strong enough

that ill hold us together still when time is tough or rough.

but as long as the stars remain

my love for you will never change

and as long as the sky stays blue

you dont have to worry

because ill forever be loving you...